If You Could Be Mine

If You Could Be Mine: A Novel - Sara Farizan

It was heartbreaking to watch Nasrin want something so bad that she could not have. Her desire consumed her and yet it was unreachable to her. She is living the life that was expected of her, a life that is right and just and she’s miserable. She tells herself that it will be okay and that things will work themselves out along the way and make her journey worthwhile but will they? Can she really forget the love of her life and live a life that is satisfying and enjoyable? Sahar knows what she wants and is frustrated on how to obtain it. She knows her sexual orientation is not something she can ignore but she is confused at the options available to her in her country. Unable to talk to her family and not yet of legal age, Sahar options are limited.

For years, these two girls have kept their intimate feeling for each other hidden from the public. When Nasrin announces her sudden engagement, Sahar is shocked but soon discovers how Nasrin parent’s played into the picture. Sahar will not stay hidden in Nasrin’s life as she suggest and soon, Sahar begins to plan how she can be Nasrin’s partner and call off Nasrin’s current engagement.   Sahar’s world breaks open as she sees firsthand how the government views individuals questioning their sexual orientation. She is cast out into a world that is hidden, into a world where people can be themselves but it makes Sahar uncomfortable. The two girls want no one to know of their relationship, they are afraid of the ramifications that might transpire should they get caught. Sahar tries to get Nasrin out her mind as she works on a solution and it seems to work. Nasrin, on the other hand, needs Sahar like air. She crumbles, taking to her bed and becomes withdrawn without her dear friend. Nasrin, the individual who I believed would be the one who would succeed, fell…she fell hard and that my friend, is love.